Eat CLEAN!

Ever since the holidays, I fell off the paleo wagon HARD. I know I've mentioned this before, but now I'm really seeing the differences from being paleo, to... not. As a matter of fact, the following has gotten worse since pre-paleo, to full paleo, to 80% paleo, to the shitter.

• Allergies: I would normally get my eye allergies and sneezies out in the morning by 8:00 am. While I was doing the challenge, my allergies were practically non-existent. Now, my allergies last almost all day, and I thought I was getting sick, but no... just allergies. All day, all the time.
• Sleep: I would sleep maybe 4-5 hours a night, waking up maybe twice at the most. While on the challenge, by the 2nd week, I slept through the whole night, PLUS felt great in the morning, not the typical sluggish crap... and by the time I got home from work and WODing, I still had energy to pull together a full meal to eat for dinner AND meals for the next couple days. As of late, I get maybe 5-6 hours of sleep a night, but I wake up every 1-2 hours. RIDICULOUS! I may as well be sleeping 3-4 hours. I noticed too, that even when I get home post-WOD, I shower and just pass the fcuk out! This week has definitely been my "rock bottom" week because, out of the 5-6 meals PER DAY, I've maybe been paleo, 3 times max. Absolutely horrendous.
• Emotions: I don't know what it is, but when I saw Dan on Sunday, I started crying because I was hungry. CRYING! I had just finished my period the day before (sorry male readers), so my hormones were fine. Obviously, will all the bad food I've been eating, I've been sleepier, crankier, more feisty and sad.
• Thumb/Wrist Sprain: I don't know exactly how my eating habits affect my injury, but I feel like I'm healing slowly compared to before. Maybe this week of just pure carbs clogging up my insides is just preventing my usual fast healing time.
• Weight Gain: I gained almost my weight back from the paleo challenge; I gained 8 lbs, I weighed myself yesterday. It didn't really shock me because I have been eating really bad and because I feel like I've been babying my injury, I haven't been WODing hard.

Given all these factors and reasons and SHIT, this week has slapped me so hard on the face that I'm in the process of making my grocery list. Bullshit to the side, I can't let myself go again. I've been doing so well, and I'm surrounded by good, healthy, driven people... and plus, I'm still featured on CrossFit Ero's website.

I feel as if I need an incentive to be Whole 30... It was nice getting my new Adipower OLY shoes... maybe I'm just being vain... but I'm really trying for these to be my incentives:

1. Stabilize my allergies
2. Get a FULL night's rest on the daily
3. Be zen
4. WOD to my fullest potential
5. Lose weight

*Also, because of reason #5, I will be visiting my friend in Baltimore, MD... Angel. We met online a decade ago (no lie). We haven't met in person, but after a decade... I think it's time. I'll be spending a week with her and for her birthday... Gotta be physically/emotionally ready for something like this.

Okay so, it's decided.

No more excuses. Tonight, I have a doctor's appointment, and I'll hit up Whole Foods and Vons either later or tomorrow after the WOD and shit's about to get REAL.